lies and misspelled words

Next Life June 15, 2010

My husband’s grandmother passed away last night. And in order to “prepare” me for the tone of his family at the funeral, he tells me that I will hear a lot of people say “she is with grandpa now”. Like most typical Christian families they believe in life after this “one” we have here on earth. And in their case that life is heaven.
I don’t know about heaven or hell but I know /want so badly/ for there to be something else out there for us once we leave this life. It just doesn’t make sense to me that we would live this whole life for it to end one day with nothing beyond our body. All that we accomplished, all that we felt, all that we loved and hated. Where would it all go?
There must be some sort of emotional vault that we all enter. And its so full yet so freeing. I imagine it like the warmest feeling in your heart. That sounds like a place I would like to be forever.
So right as my husband began falling asleep I leaned over and said “I hope there is life after this one. I wouldn’t want to be without you.” And he said “I hope so too babe”. And I guess sometimes hope is all we have for this life and the next.